spookss

I dunno what is up with me but i cannot stop being ill. i was sick last weekend and im starting to get pretty sick again now. not really sure what im sick with exactly, but im coughing up a storm and my legs ache like hell. also im always either too hot or too cold, so maybe its the flu. being sick is pretty lame, but whats even more lame is WORK. ive been complaining about my work a lot to friends and my dad, and i dont like complaining too much cause it just brings more hate into the world and makes me feel sad, so this is the last time im gonna talk about this situation for awhile.

on sundays im the only 'decorator' there from 7am until either 10 or 12 (i work at a grocery store bakery). its been that was since i started, which is incredibly stupid by the way cause i havent TOUCHED cakes at all and only do backups- so i cant write on cakes for customers SO I SHOULDNT BE ALONE? i called off last sunday because of sickness, so its up to my managers to take care of stocking the decorator portion of the store (which takes like, an hour max, so not a big deal). I have beef with one of my managers, we'll just call her v, and i know shes the one who ends up having to take care of the work that i usually do. i feel maybe a bit evil, but the thought of her having to cover for me brings me joy.

to be blunt i really dislike v. she is lazy, selfish, and probably really insecure. most days its 'our' job to stock the main floor and when i say our i mean mostly mine because i do almost everything. she will make a list of things we need for the floor and give me like 75-80% of it, and then take way longer than i do to actually finish stocking. she comes in late EVERY DAY without fail, gives me half of her work (and then complains about having to stall until she gets off), and is honestly nice to everyone except for me? ill be talking to her and its like im not even an actual person to her, she talks about what she want to talk about and thats it, if i try to change topics it goes right back to what she was saying. and it sucks cause everyone else there likes her because shes worked at this store for a long time, and she has respect for everyone but me. she very clearly doesnt respect me at all. i dont expect everyone to care about me, but she could at least have the decency to treat me like a real person.

ANYWAYS this is relevant because i had to call off again today because im sick again. i called and told her i was sick and that i thought it was the flu or something. but then she told me i needed to bring in a doctors note? girl.... what?? if it was a company thing i would understand but im 90% sure its not because ive never needed a doctors note when calling off other then when i was gone for a month because of my appendix. i didnt confront her about it and just asked where i was even supposed to get a doctors note and she told me to go to ER. GIRL IM NOT DOIN ALLAT. that would be such a waste of time when i feel like ITS NOT NEEDED. esp if this isint a company thing and is just her speculating that im not sick (which wouldnt surprise me).. but like.... i came in yesterday and was coughing all day and obviously sounding like shit? i dont know man, ive called in sick multiple times before when i worked at the front of the store and i never had to get a doctors note.

this long ass rant doesnt even cover half of my problems with my job, every day i go in i get more fed up with the place. BUT it will be okay because i wont have to work there for much longer, so im trying to care less about it cause its not gonna matter to me in like a few months so whats even the point. other then work and sick stuff i havent had too too much going on. ive been playing project zomboid with my pookie which has been really fun, we heart coming up with lore for our characters :) im also really behind in school but its ok cause i have plenty of time to catch up and plan on working on it today and tommorrow. oh and i also got some fabric to make one of those tie blankets that dont require any sewing, so that'll be fun when i get to it. for now its time to lock the fawk in and get some school done T_T