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i went back to work yesterday! i got some good tips and it wasnt as busy as i thought it would be. nobody really asked about me not being there, a few people did but most didnt really seem to notice or care. im not upset about it, but its interesting to see how much i really dont matter in the work place. like there wouldnt be much of a difference wether im there or not. which is honestly just more motivation to find a new job, even if i dont matter there either id like to find somewhere more interesting to work. i used to like the socialization that came with my job, i got to talk to a lot of new people and make some cool friends. but recently ive just been spacing out while at work, barely able to socialize, my brain just kinda shuts off. i also figure i can get that socialization at almost any other job, with more stimulation too; sacking just becomes numbing at some point.

ive started learning html and css again. im starting from scratch, and ive been making pretty good progress so far. i just have a page on my website that im using as practice while i go through lessons, im really happy i decided to just start doing it because its so easy to pick up again. i need to do the same with other stuff too, my list right now is reading, writing, crocheting, cooking, drawing, and scrapbooking esc. activities. i have this journal that looks super old and cool, it uses recycled paper and you can see the binding on the back of the cover, which is leather. it reminds me of a pirates log, i really love the design but havent really written much in it. right now i just keep stickers and pictures in between the pages but id like to glue them on and actually use them as decoration. i think once i pick up drawing again and get consistent enough with writing here ill take on that challenge.

things have been looking up these past few days, i found a new band i like, im back to work, my grades have been pretty good, im starting to work with html again, and ive generally been feeling alright. im hoping the motivation im getting from coding will kickstart some motivation for the other things i wanna get to, but im gonna try and be careful not to burnout. looking forward to this upcoming week, i wanna see what i can get done ^^.